We're into my last week at the Unitarian Universalist/United Church of Christ retreat center at Star Island. This summer working Conference Services has flown by and has mostly resulted in me being incredibly lazy about doing useful things like putting together a resume so I can find a job so I can live next year.
But
I am moving to New York (Rego Park, Queens) mid-September to start my "new life" in the "real world." Why is it that I always use those phrases when describing the part of my life that starts this fall? "New Life?" Does that mean that my current life is somehow less real? And the life of a wannabe Bohemian moving to The City with no real plans is as far from the real world as life at a liberal mid-west university.
So what are the goals of my adventure (a much more worthy title)? I'm looking for a job in the arts. Or alternatively, a job that will allow me time to pursue my interest in the arts. The dreaded day-job. I want to audition for things. I want to spend lots of time in museums and galleries. I want to continue learning and being involved in my community. I want to take lots of photos and become a fabulous cook.
I think I spent too much time worrying about starting a "life" and what I need to do is just go out and live. I don't want to go to grad school yet. I don't want to make up my mind and have a grand life plan. And I'm realizing that I don't have to.
And so I shall embark, in my tiny sailboat, out of the coral reefs and off toward the islands in the distance.
As soon as I leave my island.
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There is room here for a very metaphoric point with your leaving one island, and coming to another.
But I shall be less profound. Working with actors, especially starting out a term just now, I've got 'comfort' zones and such on my mind.
Its hard to leave it, but truly some of the best discoveries and excitment come from a place where you're more vulnerable.
I heard today that the best cure for fear is curiosity. If you let your interest in things come to the forefront over your apprehensions and doubts, you manage and you'll probably get more out of the moment.
Daunting yes, but the more you commit to the things, the more you get from them.
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